Recovering Process and what a day!!!

What a DAY!!! hehehe... My day started off on a late note as i woke up late for school today..:C but thankfully to my very professional yet fast driver i got to school just on time for homeroom... hehehe:D PE ( Physical education ) was the first class of the day and we played volleyball.. it was kinda interesting today as everyone was like so blurr... so early still then play sports adi... haiz.. of course la..kekekee.:D then i had free the next period and i had the oppurtunity to touch up on my speech.. i had to give a speech today at assembly because i was running for SRC in my school.. therefore to covinve my schoolmates to vote for me i had to give a speech..

THe fact of needing to stand infront of the entire school and speak, whoa!! the feeling was scary in a way but yet exciting as i had nvr done that before.. properly la i mean.. like really speak and give a proper speech... Then around 2.20pm, it was finally time for me to speak, therefore i decided to give to the toilet and have a quick wash of my face to calm my nerves.. hehehehe:D somemore so cold le.. raining somemore.. I was then given second place to speak out of 11 places.. so i was like, NO WAY!! so fast.. but anyway my teacher said it cant be change adi coz have to start...:C

Then afterabout 5 minutes after the first person had given her speech, it was my turn... My habds were sweating and my hand would not stop shaking.. i really thought that i would screw up and make a fool out of myself.. but..... thankfully everything went smoothly but just the face that my hands were shaking fervently the whole time and i could not read my notes and i had to rely on my brains and my heart to determine what i was going to say next.. hehehe...

Now my feelings that were consuming me the past few days have like left me a little and things seem better after not sleeping for a day and having my devotion earlier in the morning when i can breath in the morning fresh air and also see the scenery from my apartment.. 28 floors up!! thats a view!! keke:D it was the same day that i felt realy down that i decided to stay up and think about things and how i must overcome these feelings.. then i decided to have devotion at my balcony around 5.45am in the morning and for the first time since i came to indonesia, i saw the sunrise! IT was a beautiful experience.. The sun was so yellow and that particular part of the sun was not covered by the clouds and it was like staring right at me! IT was beautiful!! i felt like the sun was there just for me that morning.. because 5 minutes later, the sun could not be seen as the heavy and ark clouds covered it as it was going to rain that morning!! i spend time praising GOD and thanking hm for everything and i felt like his peace and joy and clamness came upon me.. It has been like 2 days since then, and for the first time in 2 weeks, i dun feel miserable.. and guess what, for the first time in also 2 weeks and more i did not dream and had a sound sleep!! i think that is why i woke up late lah!!! i can take it and i can go through it for my GOD is for me! ANd through HIM i can do all things!! i really thank GOD for bringing me through that... and also i want to say a big thank you to my mum as she never gave up and kept on encouraging me. As i cried my heart out, she did he same.. and my uncle from london called me and personally told me that everything was going to be alright. and also shu run for posting me a comment tht reminded me that GOd is in control!!! Not to forget, someone that i least expected cared for me as she told my mum to look out for me.. A big big thank you goes out to you all of you and without you all i think this process would have taken so much longer!! And also ah THANK YOU SO MUCH Mummy!! for everthing.. for being wtih me thru the ups and downs and also the sleepless night u had worrying about me... Thank you so much oh!! dun worry kiez? I will be fine again from now on!!

In conclusion, what an awesome day and week it has been.. Bitter sweet but i have come out of it stronger and having gain a valuable life lesson and an experience that i will cherish for the rest of my life!! As for the problem, i think i have committed it to GOD and let GOD take control of it and also take control of my life!! If the girl is really meant for me and this is a test that we together have to go thru, then so be it and if we are meant for each other, i believe that someday somehow we will be together again!! BY the way, my GOD is a supernatural GOD and he knows the plans he has for me, plans to prosper me and not to harm me, plans to give me hope and a future! ( Jeremiah 29:11 ) NOt forgetting he even calls me by my name and he knows the exact numbers of my hair, therefore why should i not put my full trust in him and believe in His time, all will be revealed and everything that he has planned for me shall come to past!! Amen!!

P:S Love GOD, Love Others and reach the WORLD!! oh ya.. Love mummy too... kekeke:D

JOsh!!!