More udates comin soon

To those that are wondering what happen to me and this dead dead dead blog, i will be updating this blog very soon... so please check back for more details ok??? details about me, APYAC (Asia Pacific youth Alive Conference) and also much much more interesting stuff about me!!

This post i dedicate to my beloved hun,

Anothone Sisouvong!!

I love you lots and thinking of you always!!
Muahhxxx!!

JOsh

Singapore 5 hours stopover...

MURTABAK DAGING!!

Wah.... Delicious le... NAsi Briyani in Zam Zam in Singapore! Yummy!! I and mummy run out from airport coz got 5 hours gap till our next flight... YummY!! Long time i no eat adi!!

Got more info and pictures comin up when i get back to Jakarta lah.. now i in KL, Malaysia coz run from bomb!! heheh.... hope to be back soon in time for skol!!

JOsh....

My goodness!!

Oh my goodness!! iTs been ages since my last post!! dunno how many months adi!! i miss blogging but at the same time, its good also lah... this place serve as a plce to share my sadness and to pour out all the bad things that happen in my life!! so that means my life have been good and not many problems lu!! whehehhe...
but anyways, i am into my holiday season and its like into the 2nd week of my holidayz... its ben relaxing and have been getting lots of rest! but now its time to workout and get ready for newxt term!! my target, school basketball star!! whahahaha... so full of myself!! but thats the target i have set myself besides getting a very high UAI!! so lets pray and hope i can achieve both these targets!! During these holidays, there have been up and downs... Certain people that i care about have deserted me!! i feel like i have been used and then threw away and that thought hurts me very much!! but on the upside, GOd has blessed me by putting different types of people around me to mole me and shape me into the man that HE wants me to become!!! I can proudly say that today i realize that my FIREfor GOd is still there and i will do my best to flame it!!! hehehehe... so for anyone that could be reading this and ur so happen in subang, do go for PUSH ok!! check out the website subangrally.blogspot.com for more info on time, date and location yea!!

Anyways, i am off to basketball practice now to began my road to stardom!!!! wish me luck ya!! and i will be off to thailand soon for holiday so hope to pose up some pictures yea!!! i dunno how to but i will find a way lah!! hehehehe.... so till then or maybe sooner, check in for more updates in the life of the crazy me.... whehehehe... CHEERS!!


Josh

Worship you Alone

HEy everyone, i am posting the lyrics of this song because it has touched me in a very powerful way this past few days... It is a old song from Planetshakers album Pick it up Disc 2. Those that have the song, i do hope that you would listen to it over and over again because what it means and sings is trully amazing!! If you dont have the song, do try to buy the album or download the song.. Some say download is bad, but if it is used in order to touch a live of a person and bring that person closer to GOD, it is regardless if it was downloaded or not!! rights??? so i hope you enjoy the song and may the song touch your heart again for GOD and you would fall in love all over again if u have forgotten or somehow place him somewhere unimportant in your life...

P.S. Grace Tham Mun Yee!!! i Know you have this disc in your car!! i want you to listen to it over and over again... and after doing it, you still wanna stick with ur decision to go back to him, i will support you!! my question is, is it worth it?? With this decision, you wont go back to church... You will give up your Creator and your father and heaven that loves you so much for 'him'... IF u dislike me for what i say, so be it! IF i lose u as a fren but you realise the mistake you are doing, i rather lose you to save you!!!

Worship you Alone (PLANETSHAKERS)
Your faithfulness never fails
Your faithfulness everyday
You're the same

Unfailing love sets me free
Unfailing love you lead me
With your hand

And all i know
With your arms around me
Your face is all that i seek
Your love and grace
Pick me up and hold me
You alone are holy

For you alone are great in power
You alone are my strong tower
And i will lift my heart and soul
To worship you alone

For you alone are my desire
You have set my heart on fire
And i will lift my heart and soul
To worship you alone
Worship you alone

And i will follow after you
For you are my desire
Oh jesus, my heart belongs to you

Malaysia....

I can finnaly log on to an internet line... i have not been able to come online since i reached Malaysia on wednesday... so today is my 5th day into my trip back to Malaysia... so 2 more days i will be comin back to Jakarta adi then the next day go back to skoooll!!! i really cant wait.. even as i have had an awesome time in Malaysia the past few days, i just feel that this is no longer a place i can call home.. i miss all my friends... i miss school and everything!!! so i am realy looking forward to going back...

So the past few days, i have been staying with my aunt in kl so quite far away lar from subang where most of my friends in Malaysia lives... so the past 2 days i have been taking LRT and KTM to get back to subang... hehehe... so now to what i have been up to the last 3 days coz the first day i reached, it was already midnight so not counted... hehehe... the past 3 days i got to see my former CF of SMK USJ 4 and the old and new members... not only that, meet some new friends... but more than that, the past few days i have spent it with someone that i have known for quite some time... it was great to be able to spend the time with her.. she was nice enough to drive me here and there.... hehehe:D The time that we spent together flew by really quickly.. i guess that shows i am having fun... dunno about her lah... hahahahaha... nvr tell me... but anyways, it was an awesome 2 days.. food, shopping, more food, more drinks, more car rides, more discussion and also a job inquiry somewhere along the way... what more can i ask for!! so i wanna say a big thank you to you for everything!!! if ur reading this, i am sure u will know i am talking about you... hahaha... :D so i also wanna wish u all the best in ur life... as i have said many times, as long as ur happy, then i will be happy!! so please take care ok jie??? Be safe always and remember that you deserve more than what u think u deserve!! your much more valuable and much more precious!! so i hope things for you will get better and all your dreams will come true yea..... i have said a lot face to face so i guess i will not repeat them lah... hahaha... one last thing, if it means anything anymore, our deal still stands ok!!! hahahaha:D

For more updates from the last 2 days of my trip in Malaysia, hopefully i will post it from the airport just before i leave Malaysia la... till then, take care and GOD BLESS!!!

What a trip!!

Hey everyone,i am back from my little adventure to thailand..... it was an awesome experience!! hanging out on the beach, going snorkelling, doing some improvise diving.. hahaha:D and most importantly i learned how to cook thai food!! it was a totally great experience and it is the adventure that i will never ever forget... i just got back from the airport so i do hope to post the full story in the comin days hopefully with pictures too!!! hehehehe....:D

Something off topic
P.S Thank you for lying to my face.. now that i am finally 100% sure, i can move on with my life... i thought i could talk to you again one day or be good friends with you someday again, but with you lying straight to my face i dunno how i can do it.. I do hope that the real you would come back again, but i guess i would never know..

Suprise!!

Yesterday i went to the hospital as i had high fever and also my whole body was aching... so as i was telling the doctor what happen, she said that i had "dengwe".. hmm.. so my mum was like, "was it that?? what is that?" coz she du understand.. i also la.. i tought what it was.. so the doctor said it was dengue... she said i had signs of it.. so she said i have to take blood test.. and by the way, i hate needles!! i freak out when i see them!! so there you go, that is my weak point.. kekeke:D so anyways, as the nurse was taking my blood, i prayed and told god to lessen the pain and give me courage... somemore i call myself a guy ha... needle also sccared.. but anyways, that is not the point.. kekeke:D the point is, the moment she stuck the needle into my arm, i felt like i wasnt scared at all.. i just looked the other way and it was over even before i knew it.. hehehe:D thank god!!!
then it was time to get it tested.. and after waiting for more than an hour, the esultss showed that PRAISE GOD i did not have dengue and i did not have to stay in the hospital.. hehhee.. but i still have to eat medicine.. :C me no like medicine... so i have been eating it but somehow it makes me go to the toilet so much.. haizzz... stress la...kekeke:D

then today i went to skooolll... and it was quite good!!! my friends maria and juno planned and organized who my partner was to be for bio class... hehe:D and then i was coughing the whole time and i did not want to infect her as she was sitting next to me.. so i tried my best to cough less but it keep comin.. i feel so bad.. i hope she will be fine.. somemore she just got well from typhoid.. haizz.. and today she told me she got a small problem with her heart... and somemore today she say she not feeling but after skool still play basketball.. haizz... so naughty! but anyways, i hope she will be fine.. heart problem no play play ah.. very dangerous.. like me also la, when play sports my heart will like bear super fast and then i will like sweat like crazy... then after like 5 minutes i will be ok again... hehehe:D so anyways, today i had soccer.. and it was great.. even as it was super duper hot!! then we decided that we should practice at least twice a week coz we have like a super good team and we wanna play matches and competition!! heheh.... so we told out teacher about it.. so lets see what happens le...

Then finally, i have to plan for a fundraiser for my house next week and then i will be leaving for Thailand next friday!! before that, bio exam, maths assignment, esl assignment and pe assignment.. not to forget business exam!! so i will be super duper busy but not to forget i will have time for sure for my korean classes!! hoping my teacher will teach me.. she is currently considering!!! kekeke:D so i will not be blogging anytime soon, but i do hope to be back with updates from thailand!! till then, take care eveyone!! have a blessed week and may GOd bless you al abundantly in every area of ur life!!!

JOsh..

Awesome is her middle name!!!

IF u are wondering why i put this name as my blog title, its because there is this girl in my schooll... she is also my lil sis.. and she has helped me out a lot thru some difficult time.. so i wanna dedicate this post to her!! and here also i wanna say a big thank you to you for everything and without you, so many things would be different.. therefore from this moment forth, regardless of what happens,i owe you okiez!!!:D luv ya!! alrights, so to start things off, its been a great week for me... this week has been the assigment hand up week... so handing in most of my assignments has been a very relaxing thing... and also this week i manage to see liverpool beat MAn U 4-1.. it was awesome!! i sat and watched a game with a fellow friend of mine, also a liverpool fan and it was a great time!! not only that, with liverpool winning, my ESL teacher, Mr. Brian Brightman owes me lunch for a week and also starting from tomoro, he has to wear a liverpool jersey for one whole week!!! hahaha.. by the way he is a MAn U fan!! so by him doing that, it is something quite challenging.. !!!hehehe:D

And besides that, yesterday i found out that a friend of mine that had typhoid has fully recovered and she is coming back to school tomoro!!! so that is awesome news!!! Praise GOD and i wanna thank GOd for his hand upon her and that her recovery has been speedy and no complications would happen and she will be healthy mind, soul and body from now onwards!!! AMEN!!! BEsides that, yesterday i had a great time out with my friends! had a time of chit chat and just having fun hanging out.. not oni that, had good food and drinks and the best part, my lil sis paid for me and she did not wanna accept my money.. so my plan is to buy her lunch or dinner another time la... :D hehehe... I have also decided to join the year 12 excursion to thailand, Krabi and 11 of us will have 5 days holiday there and i hope it will be a great time of fun and hanging out!! hmm.. then i will be going back to malaysia for a while la... i dun seem too keen on going back, but my mummy wants to go back to coz worried of the political turmoil here during election time, so i guess i will just have to toughen up and face my fears!!

Now to the serious part, today i went to church and my youth Pastor preached out the power of collabaration, and that made me think about the CF subang rally that i had plan with a bunch of my friends last year and how it would be great if i could plan another even like that with church friends over here in indonesia!! A Indonesia Christian Rally to reach out to the people of Indonesia and tell them about the love of Christ!!! it would truly be doing HARD THINGS!! i know many people that maybe reading this may thing its like impossible but i wanna challenge my friends in IES and my christian friends here in indonesia that may be reading this!!! it will be hard, but are u willing to do hard things? are u willing to answer the call of reaching a generation for Jesus?? will you just sit there and wait for another PLanetshakers or hillsong United conference or concert to come along, or are you will to be the PLanetshaker and the Hillsong United? That is my challenge to you all today!!! So i guess i will be leaving u all with this challenge, but if u have an opinion one way or another, do leave a comment okiez?? And til my next post, do take care and be safe always and may GOd bless you abudantly in every area of ur life!!!

P.S Cant wait for tomoro and bio... should i sit next to someone?? should I?? hmm..:D

Love ya all,
JOsh..:D

Love language!!

TOday i started off my day with mummy asking me what is the 5 things i always wanted so that she could do to show to me that she loves and cherish everything i have done... hmm... i wanted to say so many things such as i want a credit card, shopping credit, gifts like all the stuff i always wanted.. but i decided not to say that... coz that is not what i really want!! I thought about it for a moment i recalled everything that mummy has done for me since we left ipoh and from the very time i knew that she was my mum, everything she ever did was to give me the best!! Mummy always had to work the extra hours just to give me the best.. she had to travel so much in a tiny kancil, risking her life just to earn the extra mileage pay so that she could buy a good meal for me.. and the times where she would be all alone and no one there to support her, she would pull herself through just so that she could see me grow up healthy and be the man she always wanted me to be!! Mummy also left her friends and family in Malaysia to come to indonesia to find more money to pay for my University studies and also to give me a better life!! She has done everything for me so how can i ever ask for anything more from her... she has given her all for me!! So i decided to tell her that its time for her to have a life of her own.. Go and have fun, make more friends and do the things that she likes.. not only that, i told her to stop worrying about me so much because i have growned up well all thanks to her! By the 17th of August 2009, she will be legally no longer responsible for me!! So i think that mummy you should start to live ur life now!! U have lived ur life for me long enough adi... its time for you to be able to enjoy ur life and do the things that u always wanted!! you dun need to worry about me so much anymore!! wo se big boy already!! ehmmm.. i am man already ok?? kekeke:D i will do my best in my studies this year and i will get that scholarship for you mummy!! no matter how hard it will take, i will work hard and make that a reality ya!! That is my promise to you!! and i damm sure i wont break this promise!! okiez??

then le i will study hard to get my degree and hopefully masters.. but i dun want PhD coz its permanent head damage ma right.. kekeke.. i dun want to be like "gong gong" u know.. hehehe.. then le i will work hard then i will help realise ur dream of travelling the world ya!!! ok mummy? that will be my gift to you for all the things that you have done and sacrifice for me ya mummy!! and from then on, i want mummy to enjoy ur life like what chinese people say, "heong ching fuk".. i hope i got that right!! hehehe...:D

So i guess that is evrything i feel mummy!! that is my love language to you! And regardless of what happens in the future, i will love you forever and ever!! Your the greatest mummy anyone could have and i will never give anything in exchange for you!! I Love you mummy!!

Love,
JOsh

Get well soon!!

hey everyone.. i am back again with another post. its been a while since my last post... its because i have been very busy the past few days and i am not able to focus on the tasks at hand because of something!!hehe..but anyways before i go on any further, i wanna dedicate this post to a fren of mine, she is currently sick and it sounds quite bad and based on what a fren of her's told me, she has typhoid. And after researching it, my heart nearly fell into my stomach.. its fatally chance is like 20%!! so i am really worried and i hope she will get well soon!! oh ya dun forget GOD is her healer! so i guess what i can do now is to pray for her lu..hehehe:D and not to forget she also must faster get well coz next week got a lot of assignments due!! so faster get well ok??? :D must ah!!hehehe.. oh ya and not to forget to my mum too.. she is down with flu today and hopefully she will get well soon to le!! SHe has been like stressing out these few days coz her bosses from singapore is here so hopefully this weekend she can rest and get well lu...

oklah.. now to my week.. it has been a very interesting week... studies have as usual taken up a lot of my time and also exercise la. hahah:D on wednesday i played soccer like for 4 hours!! full field somemore!! wah after playing i felt so tired but after comin back and take a cold shower, phiew.. i felt better.. and of course after eating la.. haha:D then today in PE we had theory session and we learned about biomechanics!! whoa it was interesting! oh not to forget i woke up late today and reach skoll like 20 minutes late. heheh.. promise will try not to let that happen again...:D then the rest of the day was ok.. had a 40 minute session with BINUS international university jakarta and then had a eventfull maths class as i could not concentrate coz i found out that my fren when into the hospital.. haiz..:C

So to my long weekend tomoro.. btw monday is holiday here in indonesia or should i say jakarta so i have a long weekend and tomoro i am suppose to go out with a bunch of frens to PIM(pondok indah mall) to have dinner and maybe catch a movie.. so i guess tomoro will be fun just that she will not be able to make coz she is sick.. but anyways its ok... will always be another time... And then on sunday, my fren Vincent KONG birthday!! so going to celebrate his birthday in crown plaza hotel.. it will be a blast!!:D so here, I wanna wish u a very happy and blessed 18th birthday and may all ur dreams come true this year and for many years to come bro!! and hope ur face agney go away faster la.. but i dunno what to buy for him as present la. he so rich what also have.. haizzz.. so tonight have to go think and see what to get this fren of mine for his birstday!!by the way, thats how he pronounced it that day ok!! hahaha:D no offense ya bro!!

Then finally, it wil be project and assignment time for me again... and with exams comin soon, this weekend i wil try to enjoy it as much as i can coz starting next week, its going to be battle time for me in my studies!! So i guess this will be where i end this post and til my next post,i hope my mum and fren would get well soon and i know that both of u will be back to 100% condition in no time!! Be safe always, take care and may GOD bless you all readers abundantly in very area of ur life!!

JOsh...

Another week came and went!!

hey eveyone... i am back again.. hehehe:D just came back from dinner.. i had steak and it taste good but it was like rubber man... so tough.. hahaha:D maybe its because i dun like the bloody kind and thats why i order well done so become like that la... hahahah:D alrights now to my week and how it went.. well my week was kinda of good!! it was nice but at the same time quite tiring ciz on wednesday i did not sleep at all!! because watch liverpool play real madrid!! it was all worth it man.. 1-0 to liverpool! Whoa!! ok that was good but then i went to skol with panda eyes... and all my friends in school also most of them liverpool fans were all like celebrating!! it was so cool!! And the day before that i went to the zoo with my biology class.. wah it was an eye opener! it was a great experience and i have learned quite a bit and that animals are jus not entertaiment items, they have life and they have feelings too and they deserve out care and thought!! so please do ur part in tying to save the environment okiez?? hehehe:D

Then it was assignment time!! haiz.. economics assignment.. man it was challenging to find info and do the researching but now after i have done everything i feel so good... just have to type it all up this weekend then i am done!! yay!! hmm.. then it was excursion and paying deposits.. i had to pay like 100 USD for deposit and the trip will cost about 800 USD to krabi, thailand.. haizz.. expensive right!! but see la what kind of flight and accomodation.. i really would like to go!! i looked it up on the net and it was amazing!! the beaches and everything!! Anyways if i dun go on the excursions, i hope to be able to go to paris in april during my holidays with my mum... hehehe:D its really cheap.. dunno why but i it cost like 2000 USD for 2 person inclusive of flight and hotel.. but that is just dream la.. most probably go taiwan or japan one.. haiz..:D or if not go back malaysia!! the thought of going back to malaysia scared me when my mum told me that in the car does now.. i guess its a phobia i will have to face.. phobia of going back to my home country.. sounds crazy ha..:D but that was really what i felt.. but if really go back malaysia i dun mind geh.. the food and all!! and also can visit family and some friends if they have holidays then also.. but just to inform you all reading this, all this holiday talk is not because of my school holidays ok.. its all about escaping from indonesia during that period coz it will be election then and everyone is worried about troubles happening!! but i will be praying le.. for everything to be safe and peaceful!!!

So here comes the weekend and with my driver off tomoro, i guess tomoro will be just doing assignment and getting some good rest.. and not to forget food.. going to malaysia street tomoro here in indonesia with pak sam!! and mummy too!! should be fun!! so u all out there, have a great weekend, be safe and have a blast ya!!!
Take care and GOd Bless!

Cheers.
JOsh

UC or wait it out after AST???

hey everyone i am back!! hahaha.. its been around a week since my last posts and since then lost have been happening!! i have great news and also not so good news.. haizzz... Okok first start with the good news.. i went for a university convention at Intercontinental hotel Jakarta organized by the Australian Embassy and i was offered a place in University Canberra for a Diploma COurse for one year and then i can go straight into my second year of my degree.. and it saves about 6 months thanks to my year 11 results!!! ALL GLORY and PRAISE goes to GOD for my results!! so now i considering if its better for me to accept the offer and go in june to Canberra, Australia or to finish my year 12 and still my AST and get my UAI then i can have more choices.. so now i am like dunno which to choose... so thats that about good news.... the bad news le i have become fatter!! hahaha... eaten to much le.. but also i manage to do 30 proper push ups!! wah i so happy. hope to build better muscles.. hahah.. oh ya yesterday also i want to indo zoo!! it was so fun... get to see orang utan and many different endangered animals!!! there are so many things that we can do to save them... but the question is we are ready to give a helping hand to them?? the animals!! hey have life and feelings too ok? hehehehe:D
then i got highest for my maths test in my class!! Good start for the year! oh yeah!! Thank you GOD for giving me the wisdom and being my teacher and study partner!! With you nothing is impossible! imagine 2 years ago maths was my weakest subject!!! kekeke...

this will be the end of this post as i will have to go sleepp... coz i am gonna catch the Real Madrid vs Liverpool game at 2 am.. hope liverpool do well.. then have to do economics paper assignment! kekeke:D till my next post, take care you all out there reading this and may GOD bless you in every single area of your life!!!

Love ya all,
JOsh...:D

Weekend!!

Hey everyone... the weekend is here again and its time for many of us to get some rest after a long and crazy week.. this week has been good for me as i manage to pass up my first bio assignment.. yay!! it was great since it was my first time studying biology and i am already in pre-u and somemore now oni studying bio.. but anyways that is all done and dusted.. so this weekend will be very interesting as IES Teens Jakarta will be starting their 7 week long series about "DO HARD THINGS" and i am supose to be policemen.. catch those that are running away from doing hard things.. Policemen ministry!! Awesome man!! not only that, on sunday, i will be going for a convention that is organized by the Australian Embassy here in Indonesia andthey have brought about 40 universities from Australia and i will be attending the convention with hope of trying to get a place in ANU ( Australia National University ) to study Economics and Commerce!! * i do hope my last year results will be good enough for them to also offer me a scholarship!! Keeping my fingers cross and will be praying about it.. hehehehe:D then the rest of my weekend will be spend on sleeping, tv, one match of football, and music and oh ya spending time wiht my belove mummuy and shopping and of course eating good food!! hahhaha:D

By the way i had my first local street food nasi padang today with my friends.. it was awesome man! the taste was!! whoa out of this world... really enjoyed it.. buy by the way, i still think Ayam BAkar taste better!! hahaha:D somemore with the sambal... wundebah!!! hahahaa!! Anyways got to go now coz its taining and thundering heavily and i am using a LAN line so dun wanna risk myself having pointy hair and also burned up face i better go offline now.. so till my next post, take care and have a blessed, safe and happy weekend!!! Cheers!! God Bless!!

JOsh!!

Day to remember..:D

Whoa today was the day i pass up my first ever biology assignment... i have never done bio and it was a tough challenge but thank GOD i manage to hand it in on time and it was quite proud of it.. but dunno what score will come out la ok.. hahaha:D and today also i saw my transcript for my last year punya results.. wah... quite happy la.. got 4 A's out of 6 subjects.. my history get B and business management le miss As by 1 and 2 marks in both semester!! stress man!! wish my teacher would cut my some slck and give me 1 point la.. then can get A mah. but its ok i guess this year if i work even harder then i am confident can get geh!! hehehee:D

hmm... then today we decided to go to Krabi island in thailand for our camp... Japan was not possbile as my HOS and school executive board wont approve wo.. then le many of my friends also say expensive and dun want to spend so much coz they have to go back to korea as they have to prepare for uni exams in korea.. but i believe Krabi will be an awesome experience.. i saw pictures and it look amazing... all said and done, its not he place but the people you go with!! so going with my friends is something much more valuable evendo go to somewhere near oni.. so thats that la about camp.. then it was soccer time!! whao today super chun man.. this year got so many chun players.. more players joining and they are quality man.. hope we can improve then bring JIS (Jakarta INternational School) and BIS (British INternational School) on man!! we may be able to teach them a lesson or two about football... hahaha... no la no la.. jkjk oni.. kekekeke:D so thats that also about soccer then it was time for me to come back home..

Then i decided to cook and eat.. hahha.. got my favourite sup today.. ABC soup.. hahahaha:D then until so full i feel sleepy pulak.. kakaka.. ok lah i got to go adi.. need to take a shower then sleep and wake up at 3 tomoro and do homework.. so have a great day all of you guys and girls out there reading this!! Read ur bible pray everyday!! okiez?? Take care you all!! God Bless!! :D

JOsh...

Early morning!!

Wah today i wake up early lo... at 4 am i was wide wake.. needing to do my biology assignment.. haiizzz.. then do until like 5.30am, finish adi.. so fast i hope correct la hah... hahaha..ehh i got do preparation first 1 ok.. hehe:D then go get ready and all then off to skoll... i am now writing this in school by the way.. hahaha... my driver today wah hero man.. cut into the busway line then got scolding by the security!! hahahah!! but anyways thank GOD for him as i reach skoll safely everyday!!! kekeke:D ok lah i now need go to class.. hope to be back later with updates from what happen today in skol... hehehe.. have an awesome day and may GOD bless you guys and girls in all things!!

JOsh...

Finally!!!

TOday i can finally say that i have put my past behind me.... ITs been 40 odd days that i have cried and be sad and be emotional and all but now its time for me to pick myself up again... Go to school and focus on my studies, hand out with friends, spend more time with mum, and let GOD invade my heart once again and this time I will give my all to HIM!! Not to forget i need to achieve an UAI ( university admisson index ) of 99.4 to get a scholarship in ANU.. So its going to be tough but i know with GOD as my teacher and study partner i can do it!! Not to forget me putting in effort too la!! right? kekekeke:D

HEy to those that are reading this, i want to encourage you that no matter what you are going thru never ever give up on GOD... i hit the lowest point of my life when i lost the one girl that i loved with all my heart!! i never thought we could ever be separated and i had even beg GOD to give me one more chance to make things right with her but i was not given that chance... but i never lost faith in HIM!! GOd helped me thru this whole learning process... HE placed people around me to guide me and help me thru.. HE carried me when i was unable to stand on my own feet.. IT was JESUS that gave me the strength i needed to perserve!! I was so close to giving up few weeks ago, but he kept me going! Thru HIS word and thru his love!! THis song touched me in a very special way and it goes,

The same power that Conquered the grave lives in me,
Your love that rescued the earth, lives in me!!

God's everlasting love carried me thru and sustained me!!! SO dun ever lose faith in him!! In HIS perfect timing, HE will reveal to you his plan for you!! Remember JEREMIAH 29:11
GOD has seen the whole movie of ur life!!! but we as human's only can see slide by slide!! but GOD has seen the whole movie!! He wrote the MOVIE of ur live!! HE is the creater and the author and finisher of your faith!!!

TRUST in the LORD with all your heart!!! FOr he shall never forsake you!! When you feel he is far, Remember he lives in you!! In your heart!! All you need to do is to seek him and let him take control of your life!!! Remember that okiez? Will be back soon with my next post ya!! till then, take care and may GOD BLess you abundantly in every part of your life!!

JOsh.:D

Valentine's Day special!!

Hey everyone, Valentine's day is just around the corner and this year it wil fall on a saturday.. just perfect for all those that are planning to take thier love one out for a special time... and maybe give them a huge awesome for such a special day.. as for me, it will be just another day and i plan to spend valentine's day with my mum this year! She is women of my life and she will never leave me regardless.. For the past 2 years, i did not manage to spend Valentine's with my mummy so this year its my chance to pou fan sou! kekeke:D so to al hose couples and partners out there, i wanna wish u al a very happy and blessed Valentine's Day!! Cherish the moments you have together as nothing in this world is forever!!! I also wanna wish this someone, i do hope she wil get to read this, kekke... A very happy happy Valentine's day!! i really wished that i could have spend this saturday with you and give you a big big suprise but i know it wont be possible anymore!! if i could ever turn back time, i will change ever single defect in me so that we would nvr be separated and i could have been your guy forever.. if i knew things would have turned out this way, i would have nvr left ur side and let you be alone all those time you needed me most!! So i really do hope that you have an awesome Valentine's Day and may u find a guy much better than me as you deserve it dear! You deserve the very best!! :D

Now back to school and camp... its been crazy finding the right place to go for senior year camp but i think that Thailand could be the most possible place.. evendo we are keeping our fingers cross about JApan.. we had voting today and all the year seniors wanted to go to JApan.. so lets hope it could be possible!! kekekeke:D if not Thailand or cambodia or Vietnam lu... :D it would still be fun i am sure!!! hehehe...

Next, ASSIGNMENTS!! Bio, Business Management, Economics and everything else is comin!! Due dats have been given and now its time to start assignments! THe most stressful time of my schooling life for sure... pimples will be coming out a lot!! hhahah:D so i guess i have to drink lots of water and sleep early.. so its around 10.17pm jakarta time so i shold be of to bed as i have to wakie at 3 am to watch a bio video!! haiz.zzzz.. kekeke.. so nightss everyone but do check in soon again ya... will be updating very soon.. oh ya and my 2nd part to my super duper holiday back to malaysia will be the topic of my next post, that if nothing more special happen la.. example: maybe i won a lottery or something.. hahaha:D " How to win la, i also dun buy lottery ticket" hahahaha...

Have an awesome day everyone!!!
Bible verse for the day : For Sin shall not have dominion over YOU, for you are not under law, but under GRACE!!! ROmans 6:14


JOsh

Saturday!!

Today was the day where i ate my first pizza in a long time.. and i got to eat it with someone that cared a lot about me, Pak Sam!! yeah!! he and me are trullllyy pizza lovers... And we talked about all kinds off stuff and how he also faced relationship problems when he was young and how he overcame them.. and as i was listening to what he said, i realise that my problem isn't that big after all.. What about those people in GAZA that are in war and each day they have to live in fear that they may be killed and also those in Sri lanka where war have ripped their nation apart.. finally those people who are in Africa where they have no food and suffer from all sort of diseases!! Therefore even do i am going thru a bad time i have to know that my GOD is bigger than all my problemss!!! and that there are many more people that have even bigger problems than me right? hehehe:D its been 3 days since we talked and the longest that we haven talked was about 10 days when i went to Hong Kong few years back but even then we tried to sms each other.. As i am recovering but i still think about her very much.. especially like today, its aturday and youth day!! But anyways, missing someone is one thing and getting on with life is another!! So before i end, i just wanna ask those who are reading this post now to pray for those people that are going thru problems, let it be ur friends or parents or even those people in other countries that are curently in war!! Pray that God's hand will be on their situation and that he is in control of all their problems!! AMEN!!

Have a great weekend everyone and may GOD bless all of you abundantly in all areas of your life!!! Do check in soon to find out the results of the SRC voting and if i got voted in!! Keeping my fingers crossed!! kekekekeke:D

P.S And i forgot to say this in my post yesterday but the year 12's in my school proposed that we go to Japan for our camp this year!! i really do hope that we can go to Japan!! It would be really fun!!! Perth was the first proposed place, but anyways i just hope that we can go to somewhere fun for this year's seniors camp!!

JOsh..

Recovering Process and what a day!!!

What a DAY!!! hehehe... My day started off on a late note as i woke up late for school today..:C but thankfully to my very professional yet fast driver i got to school just on time for homeroom... hehehe:D PE ( Physical education ) was the first class of the day and we played volleyball.. it was kinda interesting today as everyone was like so blurr... so early still then play sports adi... haiz.. of course la..kekekee.:D then i had free the next period and i had the oppurtunity to touch up on my speech.. i had to give a speech today at assembly because i was running for SRC in my school.. therefore to covinve my schoolmates to vote for me i had to give a speech..

THe fact of needing to stand infront of the entire school and speak, whoa!! the feeling was scary in a way but yet exciting as i had nvr done that before.. properly la i mean.. like really speak and give a proper speech... Then around 2.20pm, it was finally time for me to speak, therefore i decided to give to the toilet and have a quick wash of my face to calm my nerves.. hehehehe:D somemore so cold le.. raining somemore.. I was then given second place to speak out of 11 places.. so i was like, NO WAY!! so fast.. but anyway my teacher said it cant be change adi coz have to start...:C

Then afterabout 5 minutes after the first person had given her speech, it was my turn... My habds were sweating and my hand would not stop shaking.. i really thought that i would screw up and make a fool out of myself.. but..... thankfully everything went smoothly but just the face that my hands were shaking fervently the whole time and i could not read my notes and i had to rely on my brains and my heart to determine what i was going to say next.. hehehe...

Now my feelings that were consuming me the past few days have like left me a little and things seem better after not sleeping for a day and having my devotion earlier in the morning when i can breath in the morning fresh air and also see the scenery from my apartment.. 28 floors up!! thats a view!! keke:D it was the same day that i felt realy down that i decided to stay up and think about things and how i must overcome these feelings.. then i decided to have devotion at my balcony around 5.45am in the morning and for the first time since i came to indonesia, i saw the sunrise! IT was a beautiful experience.. The sun was so yellow and that particular part of the sun was not covered by the clouds and it was like staring right at me! IT was beautiful!! i felt like the sun was there just for me that morning.. because 5 minutes later, the sun could not be seen as the heavy and ark clouds covered it as it was going to rain that morning!! i spend time praising GOD and thanking hm for everything and i felt like his peace and joy and clamness came upon me.. It has been like 2 days since then, and for the first time in 2 weeks, i dun feel miserable.. and guess what, for the first time in also 2 weeks and more i did not dream and had a sound sleep!! i think that is why i woke up late lah!!! i can take it and i can go through it for my GOD is for me! ANd through HIM i can do all things!! i really thank GOD for bringing me through that... and also i want to say a big thank you to my mum as she never gave up and kept on encouraging me. As i cried my heart out, she did he same.. and my uncle from london called me and personally told me that everything was going to be alright. and also shu run for posting me a comment tht reminded me that GOd is in control!!! Not to forget, someone that i least expected cared for me as she told my mum to look out for me.. A big big thank you goes out to you all of you and without you all i think this process would have taken so much longer!! And also ah THANK YOU SO MUCH Mummy!! for everthing.. for being wtih me thru the ups and downs and also the sleepless night u had worrying about me... Thank you so much oh!! dun worry kiez? I will be fine again from now on!!

In conclusion, what an awesome day and week it has been.. Bitter sweet but i have come out of it stronger and having gain a valuable life lesson and an experience that i will cherish for the rest of my life!! As for the problem, i think i have committed it to GOD and let GOD take control of it and also take control of my life!! If the girl is really meant for me and this is a test that we together have to go thru, then so be it and if we are meant for each other, i believe that someday somehow we will be together again!! BY the way, my GOD is a supernatural GOD and he knows the plans he has for me, plans to prosper me and not to harm me, plans to give me hope and a future! ( Jeremiah 29:11 ) NOt forgetting he even calls me by my name and he knows the exact numbers of my hair, therefore why should i not put my full trust in him and believe in His time, all will be revealed and everything that he has planned for me shall come to past!! Amen!!

P:S Love GOD, Love Others and reach the WORLD!! oh ya.. Love mummy too... kekeke:D

JOsh!!!

My feelings consuming me....

hey everyone i am back once again but this time not about the seond part of my story back to malaysia as that will be comin up in about few days time.... but this post starts off as i just had a very interesting day and definately a very interesting evening.... Things have been like up and down for me this few days and since returining to jakarta things have been better with me being able to fill my mind with work but its these feelings that i have that are consuming me.. Even as malaysia was a very memorable experience but i experienced one of the most heart breaking experience.. It was the worst start to the year and i never saw it coming... i was so sure that it would never happen... but as it is it happened, i was devastated... from that point onwards till this very moment, my feelings and emotions have been crazy.. i had to pretend that everything was fine and i was going to be ok... i filled my time reading the bible and also reaching out to god for guidence and hoping that HE can help me thru this time... it has been such a hard process and as i was sitting down just before typing this i felt like my world had crush down on me and everything that i had, all those memories and everything that was so close to my heart and dear to me was snatched and taken away from me..

I want to stop thinking about it but i cant... i dream of it every night.. every single night for the past 2 weeks since i dream of it and i wake up each morning hoping that it would stop... i keep telling myself that its going to be ok but when would this stop? what must i do? i am scared to close my eyes because everytime when i do, memories would just flash in front of me and crazy toughts would just flash past me.. i just read something that convinced me that all hope was lost and that i had lost this battle and nothing in this world that i can do to undo what is happening... it hurts so much.. i dun want to give up.. i dun want too!! i dun want to let everything that we build together just break down like that but i cant go on like this...its just so hard... so so so hard.. as i am typing this i am listening to the song healer and i believe that my god is more than enough for me... so much have been said about this song and about the author, Ps mike.... but i believe every verse and every lyrics are true and it shows what i magnificent god i have.. but i am just so tired.. its so hard... its so so so hard... i have no one to talk to that would understand and i dun want my mum to worry about me more so the only way for me is to express all my feelings here...

I would give anything to turn time back... i would give up every material thing i have just to go back to high school and the time i had in malaysia... i wish every second that this is just a dream and i would wake up and have everything back to normal... i dun want a rich life, i dun want to go to the best school, i dun want to have so much money in my bank account but i just want to go back and spend the time i had with the person that i loved so much and the person that i would give everthing i have just to see her happy and see that smile on her face.. those time where we would study together, go for tuition, eat at our favourite place and me having the wonderful and greatest honor of being able to cook for her... but i know that none of that wil ever be possible again.... i just have to move on and i hope that this feelings tht i have would go away someday and i will put my trust and faith in my GOD for he is my all and i can do all things thru him who strengthens me...

To those that may be going thru the same thing that i am going thru and you are reading this, i pray and hope that you will not give up as i will not give up!! I will not give up in my GOD JESUS CHRIST as i know he wil bring me thru this.. Its going to be very hard i can assure you but i guess this is something that everyone has to go through.... i have to go now and i wil be back next time with more stories about what is going on in my life that is currently going thru a tsunami...

JOsh!!

My super duper holiday back to Malaysia!! (part one)

hey hey everyone... i am back again... today with my story back to Malaysia and all the ups and downs of my year end and CNY holidays!!!

hehehehehe... so to kick things off i was at jakarta international airport on the 31st of december around 5 oclock like that le... then check in lu then go eat mcd wit mummy!! it was so hot... international airport somemore no aircond... haiz... lost for words la... :D Then around 7pm jakarta time ( one hour behind malaysia oh ) i boarded the plane... i got a very good seat just by the window then can se view ma but then i realise it was a night flight wo so dumb dumb la me... kekeke.... but at least i was smart enough to take a flight that would reach just in time to spend time with my dear and celebrate 2009 with her!!! So when i reached, there she was waiting for me... hehehe:D then we hit our first food place malaysia's one and only famous SRI MELUR mamak and it was time for maggi mee goreng, teh tarik, teho ice limau and roti tissue!! by the way i did not order roti canai was because i could not finish la... too fulll adi!! kakakakaka:D
Then about 1 hour later, it was 12.00 am the 1 of January 2009 and i finaly managed to celebrate new year with the one person i always wanted to celebrate new year with!! MY dream came true and at that moment i felt like i was in cloud 9!! then it was time for bed as there was much to do the next day!! kekekeke:D

Fast forward as two days and it was our CF outing!!! I managed to see all my juniors again and it was so so so fun even do we just had makan and oni had time to catch a movie we had fun and it was an unforgettable experience!!! Thank you so much guys for making that day possible and also for pushing it to a later date so that i could make it....

THen it was the all important day tht i was looking forward too.. my dear's first day at college!! i woke up at around 6.20am.. by the way i normally wake up around 11am during my holidays and as i was on holiday it was at an abnormal time for me to wakie but i could not miss my dear's very first day to college so i managed to send her to college and i was feeling so proud that she had managed to get into the college that she wanted!!! i felt like the proudest boyfren in this world!! but le i also felt sad because i had promised her that we would go to college together but with me going to indonesia to study i was sad that i could not realise that dream and promise i made for her... i hope you forgive me ya dear.. but anyways it was great i got that chance to see her off to college on her very first day and that was a priveledge that no one will ever get and it was my greatest honour that she gave me that chance and i will cherish it and never forget that very day!!!

Fast forward again ah few days coz le got so many things if i write all also u all sure very bored one de!! i know!!kakakaka:D then on the next day my dad came down to kl for the first time in i dunno how many donkey years.... so i went to puduraya to pick him up lu... so many people oh... then after waiting for about 15minutes in kfc, my dad finally reached and we went to the same wan tan mee stall that he and my mummy went when they first "pak to" oh... so it was like going down memory lane.... hehehehe:D it was an amazing feeling that i cant put into words but it was also an experience i would nvr forget....

SO i guess that is all for my shorten version of my first part of my holiday and i will be posting the continuation very soon.... by the way its the most interesting part as it would be the story of my dad's one week adventure with me in kl and the places we went and also the things that we ate!!! "Leung cai ye" one week around kl would be the title of my next post!! so do stick around


JOsh....

Happy Chinese New YEar!!

Gong Xi Fa Cai !!! Gong Hei Fat Choi!! A very very very joyous and happy chinese new year to everyone!! Wishing ALL of you the very best in the coming year and may you and your family enjoy abundance of blessings in terms of health, wealth and also in everything that you put ur effort into!!!!


Now to my CNY story... hahahaha:D Its been an awesome CNY for me as i finally got to be together with my whole family for this joyous occation... hmm.... as for my angpau collection, its been a little of target due to the global economic ressecion so many also shrink in the content of their angpau la!! ong cheng bo ho ma!! ( economy no good ) *in hokkien..... hehehe:D

Then the food!!! oh yummmmmmyyyyynessss! i had so much that in 5 days i put on 5 pounds.... no la canot adi... must exercise again once i go bakc to jakarta.... oh by the way i am currently in malaysia as i am a malaysian but i study in jakarta so i will be rushing back today as school starts........... TODAY!! but no ticket ma so go back today go scholll tomoro luuu.........

So i have to go now adi.... need to catch my flight back but do stcik around as i will be back with more from my adventure back to my beloved country and my wonderful experience with my family members and love ones!!!

Love ya all,
JOsh

My very first time...

Hi eveyone,

This is my very first time bloging and its kinda a very new experience to me.... This blog would firstly be mostly filled with words as i am a person that uses a lot of words to express my feelings and understanding....:D As i am trying to find the right words to say in my very important first post, i suddenly realise that i am lost for words and i am just hoping that something great would pop out... Anyways i do hope that i will be able to check in often and update this blog as often as possible... So do stick around and check out what i have to say in my next post..

P.S. even if u feel my intro post was weird....:D

JOsH