Another week came and went!!

hey eveyone... i am back again.. hehehe:D just came back from dinner.. i had steak and it taste good but it was like rubber man... so tough.. hahaha:D maybe its because i dun like the bloody kind and thats why i order well done so become like that la... hahahah:D alrights now to my week and how it went.. well my week was kinda of good!! it was nice but at the same time quite tiring ciz on wednesday i did not sleep at all!! because watch liverpool play real madrid!! it was all worth it man.. 1-0 to liverpool! Whoa!! ok that was good but then i went to skol with panda eyes... and all my friends in school also most of them liverpool fans were all like celebrating!! it was so cool!! And the day before that i went to the zoo with my biology class.. wah it was an eye opener! it was a great experience and i have learned quite a bit and that animals are jus not entertaiment items, they have life and they have feelings too and they deserve out care and thought!! so please do ur part in tying to save the environment okiez?? hehehe:D

Then it was assignment time!! haiz.. economics assignment.. man it was challenging to find info and do the researching but now after i have done everything i feel so good... just have to type it all up this weekend then i am done!! yay!! hmm.. then it was excursion and paying deposits.. i had to pay like 100 USD for deposit and the trip will cost about 800 USD to krabi, thailand.. haizz.. expensive right!! but see la what kind of flight and accomodation.. i really would like to go!! i looked it up on the net and it was amazing!! the beaches and everything!! Anyways if i dun go on the excursions, i hope to be able to go to paris in april during my holidays with my mum... hehehe:D its really cheap.. dunno why but i it cost like 2000 USD for 2 person inclusive of flight and hotel.. but that is just dream la.. most probably go taiwan or japan one.. haiz..:D or if not go back malaysia!! the thought of going back to malaysia scared me when my mum told me that in the car does now.. i guess its a phobia i will have to face.. phobia of going back to my home country.. sounds crazy ha..:D but that was really what i felt.. but if really go back malaysia i dun mind geh.. the food and all!! and also can visit family and some friends if they have holidays then also.. but just to inform you all reading this, all this holiday talk is not because of my school holidays ok.. its all about escaping from indonesia during that period coz it will be election then and everyone is worried about troubles happening!! but i will be praying le.. for everything to be safe and peaceful!!!

So here comes the weekend and with my driver off tomoro, i guess tomoro will be just doing assignment and getting some good rest.. and not to forget food.. going to malaysia street tomoro here in indonesia with pak sam!! and mummy too!! should be fun!! so u all out there, have a great weekend, be safe and have a blast ya!!!
Take care and GOd Bless!

Cheers.
JOsh

UC or wait it out after AST???

hey everyone i am back!! hahaha.. its been around a week since my last posts and since then lost have been happening!! i have great news and also not so good news.. haizzz... Okok first start with the good news.. i went for a university convention at Intercontinental hotel Jakarta organized by the Australian Embassy and i was offered a place in University Canberra for a Diploma COurse for one year and then i can go straight into my second year of my degree.. and it saves about 6 months thanks to my year 11 results!!! ALL GLORY and PRAISE goes to GOD for my results!! so now i considering if its better for me to accept the offer and go in june to Canberra, Australia or to finish my year 12 and still my AST and get my UAI then i can have more choices.. so now i am like dunno which to choose... so thats that about good news.... the bad news le i have become fatter!! hahaha... eaten to much le.. but also i manage to do 30 proper push ups!! wah i so happy. hope to build better muscles.. hahah.. oh ya yesterday also i want to indo zoo!! it was so fun... get to see orang utan and many different endangered animals!!! there are so many things that we can do to save them... but the question is we are ready to give a helping hand to them?? the animals!! hey have life and feelings too ok? hehehehe:D
then i got highest for my maths test in my class!! Good start for the year! oh yeah!! Thank you GOD for giving me the wisdom and being my teacher and study partner!! With you nothing is impossible! imagine 2 years ago maths was my weakest subject!!! kekeke...

this will be the end of this post as i will have to go sleepp... coz i am gonna catch the Real Madrid vs Liverpool game at 2 am.. hope liverpool do well.. then have to do economics paper assignment! kekeke:D till my next post, take care you all out there reading this and may GOD bless you in every single area of your life!!!

Love ya all,
JOsh...:D

Weekend!!

Hey everyone... the weekend is here again and its time for many of us to get some rest after a long and crazy week.. this week has been good for me as i manage to pass up my first bio assignment.. yay!! it was great since it was my first time studying biology and i am already in pre-u and somemore now oni studying bio.. but anyways that is all done and dusted.. so this weekend will be very interesting as IES Teens Jakarta will be starting their 7 week long series about "DO HARD THINGS" and i am supose to be policemen.. catch those that are running away from doing hard things.. Policemen ministry!! Awesome man!! not only that, on sunday, i will be going for a convention that is organized by the Australian Embassy here in Indonesia andthey have brought about 40 universities from Australia and i will be attending the convention with hope of trying to get a place in ANU ( Australia National University ) to study Economics and Commerce!! * i do hope my last year results will be good enough for them to also offer me a scholarship!! Keeping my fingers cross and will be praying about it.. hehehehe:D then the rest of my weekend will be spend on sleeping, tv, one match of football, and music and oh ya spending time wiht my belove mummuy and shopping and of course eating good food!! hahhaha:D

By the way i had my first local street food nasi padang today with my friends.. it was awesome man! the taste was!! whoa out of this world... really enjoyed it.. buy by the way, i still think Ayam BAkar taste better!! hahaha:D somemore with the sambal... wundebah!!! hahahaa!! Anyways got to go now coz its taining and thundering heavily and i am using a LAN line so dun wanna risk myself having pointy hair and also burned up face i better go offline now.. so till my next post, take care and have a blessed, safe and happy weekend!!! Cheers!! God Bless!!

JOsh!!

Day to remember..:D

Whoa today was the day i pass up my first ever biology assignment... i have never done bio and it was a tough challenge but thank GOD i manage to hand it in on time and it was quite proud of it.. but dunno what score will come out la ok.. hahaha:D and today also i saw my transcript for my last year punya results.. wah... quite happy la.. got 4 A's out of 6 subjects.. my history get B and business management le miss As by 1 and 2 marks in both semester!! stress man!! wish my teacher would cut my some slck and give me 1 point la.. then can get A mah. but its ok i guess this year if i work even harder then i am confident can get geh!! hehehee:D

hmm... then today we decided to go to Krabi island in thailand for our camp... Japan was not possbile as my HOS and school executive board wont approve wo.. then le many of my friends also say expensive and dun want to spend so much coz they have to go back to korea as they have to prepare for uni exams in korea.. but i believe Krabi will be an awesome experience.. i saw pictures and it look amazing... all said and done, its not he place but the people you go with!! so going with my friends is something much more valuable evendo go to somewhere near oni.. so thats that la about camp.. then it was soccer time!! whao today super chun man.. this year got so many chun players.. more players joining and they are quality man.. hope we can improve then bring JIS (Jakarta INternational School) and BIS (British INternational School) on man!! we may be able to teach them a lesson or two about football... hahaha... no la no la.. jkjk oni.. kekekeke:D so thats that also about soccer then it was time for me to come back home..

Then i decided to cook and eat.. hahha.. got my favourite sup today.. ABC soup.. hahahaha:D then until so full i feel sleepy pulak.. kakaka.. ok lah i got to go adi.. need to take a shower then sleep and wake up at 3 tomoro and do homework.. so have a great day all of you guys and girls out there reading this!! Read ur bible pray everyday!! okiez?? Take care you all!! God Bless!! :D

JOsh...

Early morning!!

Wah today i wake up early lo... at 4 am i was wide wake.. needing to do my biology assignment.. haiizzz.. then do until like 5.30am, finish adi.. so fast i hope correct la hah... hahaha..ehh i got do preparation first 1 ok.. hehe:D then go get ready and all then off to skoll... i am now writing this in school by the way.. hahaha... my driver today wah hero man.. cut into the busway line then got scolding by the security!! hahahah!! but anyways thank GOD for him as i reach skoll safely everyday!!! kekeke:D ok lah i now need go to class.. hope to be back later with updates from what happen today in skol... hehehe.. have an awesome day and may GOD bless you guys and girls in all things!!

JOsh...

Finally!!!

TOday i can finally say that i have put my past behind me.... ITs been 40 odd days that i have cried and be sad and be emotional and all but now its time for me to pick myself up again... Go to school and focus on my studies, hand out with friends, spend more time with mum, and let GOD invade my heart once again and this time I will give my all to HIM!! Not to forget i need to achieve an UAI ( university admisson index ) of 99.4 to get a scholarship in ANU.. So its going to be tough but i know with GOD as my teacher and study partner i can do it!! Not to forget me putting in effort too la!! right? kekekeke:D

HEy to those that are reading this, i want to encourage you that no matter what you are going thru never ever give up on GOD... i hit the lowest point of my life when i lost the one girl that i loved with all my heart!! i never thought we could ever be separated and i had even beg GOD to give me one more chance to make things right with her but i was not given that chance... but i never lost faith in HIM!! GOd helped me thru this whole learning process... HE placed people around me to guide me and help me thru.. HE carried me when i was unable to stand on my own feet.. IT was JESUS that gave me the strength i needed to perserve!! I was so close to giving up few weeks ago, but he kept me going! Thru HIS word and thru his love!! THis song touched me in a very special way and it goes,

The same power that Conquered the grave lives in me,
Your love that rescued the earth, lives in me!!

God's everlasting love carried me thru and sustained me!!! SO dun ever lose faith in him!! In HIS perfect timing, HE will reveal to you his plan for you!! Remember JEREMIAH 29:11
GOD has seen the whole movie of ur life!!! but we as human's only can see slide by slide!! but GOD has seen the whole movie!! He wrote the MOVIE of ur live!! HE is the creater and the author and finisher of your faith!!!

TRUST in the LORD with all your heart!!! FOr he shall never forsake you!! When you feel he is far, Remember he lives in you!! In your heart!! All you need to do is to seek him and let him take control of your life!!! Remember that okiez? Will be back soon with my next post ya!! till then, take care and may GOD BLess you abundantly in every part of your life!!

JOsh.:D

Valentine's Day special!!

Hey everyone, Valentine's day is just around the corner and this year it wil fall on a saturday.. just perfect for all those that are planning to take thier love one out for a special time... and maybe give them a huge awesome for such a special day.. as for me, it will be just another day and i plan to spend valentine's day with my mum this year! She is women of my life and she will never leave me regardless.. For the past 2 years, i did not manage to spend Valentine's with my mummy so this year its my chance to pou fan sou! kekeke:D so to al hose couples and partners out there, i wanna wish u al a very happy and blessed Valentine's Day!! Cherish the moments you have together as nothing in this world is forever!!! I also wanna wish this someone, i do hope she wil get to read this, kekke... A very happy happy Valentine's day!! i really wished that i could have spend this saturday with you and give you a big big suprise but i know it wont be possible anymore!! if i could ever turn back time, i will change ever single defect in me so that we would nvr be separated and i could have been your guy forever.. if i knew things would have turned out this way, i would have nvr left ur side and let you be alone all those time you needed me most!! So i really do hope that you have an awesome Valentine's Day and may u find a guy much better than me as you deserve it dear! You deserve the very best!! :D

Now back to school and camp... its been crazy finding the right place to go for senior year camp but i think that Thailand could be the most possible place.. evendo we are keeping our fingers cross about JApan.. we had voting today and all the year seniors wanted to go to JApan.. so lets hope it could be possible!! kekekeke:D if not Thailand or cambodia or Vietnam lu... :D it would still be fun i am sure!!! hehehe...

Next, ASSIGNMENTS!! Bio, Business Management, Economics and everything else is comin!! Due dats have been given and now its time to start assignments! THe most stressful time of my schooling life for sure... pimples will be coming out a lot!! hhahah:D so i guess i have to drink lots of water and sleep early.. so its around 10.17pm jakarta time so i shold be of to bed as i have to wakie at 3 am to watch a bio video!! haiz.zzzz.. kekeke.. so nightss everyone but do check in soon again ya... will be updating very soon.. oh ya and my 2nd part to my super duper holiday back to malaysia will be the topic of my next post, that if nothing more special happen la.. example: maybe i won a lottery or something.. hahaha:D " How to win la, i also dun buy lottery ticket" hahahaha...

Have an awesome day everyone!!!
Bible verse for the day : For Sin shall not have dominion over YOU, for you are not under law, but under GRACE!!! ROmans 6:14


JOsh

Saturday!!

Today was the day where i ate my first pizza in a long time.. and i got to eat it with someone that cared a lot about me, Pak Sam!! yeah!! he and me are trullllyy pizza lovers... And we talked about all kinds off stuff and how he also faced relationship problems when he was young and how he overcame them.. and as i was listening to what he said, i realise that my problem isn't that big after all.. What about those people in GAZA that are in war and each day they have to live in fear that they may be killed and also those in Sri lanka where war have ripped their nation apart.. finally those people who are in Africa where they have no food and suffer from all sort of diseases!! Therefore even do i am going thru a bad time i have to know that my GOD is bigger than all my problemss!!! and that there are many more people that have even bigger problems than me right? hehehe:D its been 3 days since we talked and the longest that we haven talked was about 10 days when i went to Hong Kong few years back but even then we tried to sms each other.. As i am recovering but i still think about her very much.. especially like today, its aturday and youth day!! But anyways, missing someone is one thing and getting on with life is another!! So before i end, i just wanna ask those who are reading this post now to pray for those people that are going thru problems, let it be ur friends or parents or even those people in other countries that are curently in war!! Pray that God's hand will be on their situation and that he is in control of all their problems!! AMEN!!

Have a great weekend everyone and may GOD bless all of you abundantly in all areas of your life!!! Do check in soon to find out the results of the SRC voting and if i got voted in!! Keeping my fingers crossed!! kekekekeke:D

P.S And i forgot to say this in my post yesterday but the year 12's in my school proposed that we go to Japan for our camp this year!! i really do hope that we can go to Japan!! It would be really fun!!! Perth was the first proposed place, but anyways i just hope that we can go to somewhere fun for this year's seniors camp!!

JOsh..

Recovering Process and what a day!!!

What a DAY!!! hehehe... My day started off on a late note as i woke up late for school today..:C but thankfully to my very professional yet fast driver i got to school just on time for homeroom... hehehe:D PE ( Physical education ) was the first class of the day and we played volleyball.. it was kinda interesting today as everyone was like so blurr... so early still then play sports adi... haiz.. of course la..kekekee.:D then i had free the next period and i had the oppurtunity to touch up on my speech.. i had to give a speech today at assembly because i was running for SRC in my school.. therefore to covinve my schoolmates to vote for me i had to give a speech..

THe fact of needing to stand infront of the entire school and speak, whoa!! the feeling was scary in a way but yet exciting as i had nvr done that before.. properly la i mean.. like really speak and give a proper speech... Then around 2.20pm, it was finally time for me to speak, therefore i decided to give to the toilet and have a quick wash of my face to calm my nerves.. hehehehe:D somemore so cold le.. raining somemore.. I was then given second place to speak out of 11 places.. so i was like, NO WAY!! so fast.. but anyway my teacher said it cant be change adi coz have to start...:C

Then afterabout 5 minutes after the first person had given her speech, it was my turn... My habds were sweating and my hand would not stop shaking.. i really thought that i would screw up and make a fool out of myself.. but..... thankfully everything went smoothly but just the face that my hands were shaking fervently the whole time and i could not read my notes and i had to rely on my brains and my heart to determine what i was going to say next.. hehehe...

Now my feelings that were consuming me the past few days have like left me a little and things seem better after not sleeping for a day and having my devotion earlier in the morning when i can breath in the morning fresh air and also see the scenery from my apartment.. 28 floors up!! thats a view!! keke:D it was the same day that i felt realy down that i decided to stay up and think about things and how i must overcome these feelings.. then i decided to have devotion at my balcony around 5.45am in the morning and for the first time since i came to indonesia, i saw the sunrise! IT was a beautiful experience.. The sun was so yellow and that particular part of the sun was not covered by the clouds and it was like staring right at me! IT was beautiful!! i felt like the sun was there just for me that morning.. because 5 minutes later, the sun could not be seen as the heavy and ark clouds covered it as it was going to rain that morning!! i spend time praising GOD and thanking hm for everything and i felt like his peace and joy and clamness came upon me.. It has been like 2 days since then, and for the first time in 2 weeks, i dun feel miserable.. and guess what, for the first time in also 2 weeks and more i did not dream and had a sound sleep!! i think that is why i woke up late lah!!! i can take it and i can go through it for my GOD is for me! ANd through HIM i can do all things!! i really thank GOD for bringing me through that... and also i want to say a big thank you to my mum as she never gave up and kept on encouraging me. As i cried my heart out, she did he same.. and my uncle from london called me and personally told me that everything was going to be alright. and also shu run for posting me a comment tht reminded me that GOd is in control!!! Not to forget, someone that i least expected cared for me as she told my mum to look out for me.. A big big thank you goes out to you all of you and without you all i think this process would have taken so much longer!! And also ah THANK YOU SO MUCH Mummy!! for everthing.. for being wtih me thru the ups and downs and also the sleepless night u had worrying about me... Thank you so much oh!! dun worry kiez? I will be fine again from now on!!

In conclusion, what an awesome day and week it has been.. Bitter sweet but i have come out of it stronger and having gain a valuable life lesson and an experience that i will cherish for the rest of my life!! As for the problem, i think i have committed it to GOD and let GOD take control of it and also take control of my life!! If the girl is really meant for me and this is a test that we together have to go thru, then so be it and if we are meant for each other, i believe that someday somehow we will be together again!! BY the way, my GOD is a supernatural GOD and he knows the plans he has for me, plans to prosper me and not to harm me, plans to give me hope and a future! ( Jeremiah 29:11 ) NOt forgetting he even calls me by my name and he knows the exact numbers of my hair, therefore why should i not put my full trust in him and believe in His time, all will be revealed and everything that he has planned for me shall come to past!! Amen!!

P:S Love GOD, Love Others and reach the WORLD!! oh ya.. Love mummy too... kekeke:D

JOsh!!!

My feelings consuming me....

hey everyone i am back once again but this time not about the seond part of my story back to malaysia as that will be comin up in about few days time.... but this post starts off as i just had a very interesting day and definately a very interesting evening.... Things have been like up and down for me this few days and since returining to jakarta things have been better with me being able to fill my mind with work but its these feelings that i have that are consuming me.. Even as malaysia was a very memorable experience but i experienced one of the most heart breaking experience.. It was the worst start to the year and i never saw it coming... i was so sure that it would never happen... but as it is it happened, i was devastated... from that point onwards till this very moment, my feelings and emotions have been crazy.. i had to pretend that everything was fine and i was going to be ok... i filled my time reading the bible and also reaching out to god for guidence and hoping that HE can help me thru this time... it has been such a hard process and as i was sitting down just before typing this i felt like my world had crush down on me and everything that i had, all those memories and everything that was so close to my heart and dear to me was snatched and taken away from me..

I want to stop thinking about it but i cant... i dream of it every night.. every single night for the past 2 weeks since i dream of it and i wake up each morning hoping that it would stop... i keep telling myself that its going to be ok but when would this stop? what must i do? i am scared to close my eyes because everytime when i do, memories would just flash in front of me and crazy toughts would just flash past me.. i just read something that convinced me that all hope was lost and that i had lost this battle and nothing in this world that i can do to undo what is happening... it hurts so much.. i dun want to give up.. i dun want too!! i dun want to let everything that we build together just break down like that but i cant go on like this...its just so hard... so so so hard.. as i am typing this i am listening to the song healer and i believe that my god is more than enough for me... so much have been said about this song and about the author, Ps mike.... but i believe every verse and every lyrics are true and it shows what i magnificent god i have.. but i am just so tired.. its so hard... its so so so hard... i have no one to talk to that would understand and i dun want my mum to worry about me more so the only way for me is to express all my feelings here...

I would give anything to turn time back... i would give up every material thing i have just to go back to high school and the time i had in malaysia... i wish every second that this is just a dream and i would wake up and have everything back to normal... i dun want a rich life, i dun want to go to the best school, i dun want to have so much money in my bank account but i just want to go back and spend the time i had with the person that i loved so much and the person that i would give everthing i have just to see her happy and see that smile on her face.. those time where we would study together, go for tuition, eat at our favourite place and me having the wonderful and greatest honor of being able to cook for her... but i know that none of that wil ever be possible again.... i just have to move on and i hope that this feelings tht i have would go away someday and i will put my trust and faith in my GOD for he is my all and i can do all things thru him who strengthens me...

To those that may be going thru the same thing that i am going thru and you are reading this, i pray and hope that you will not give up as i will not give up!! I will not give up in my GOD JESUS CHRIST as i know he wil bring me thru this.. Its going to be very hard i can assure you but i guess this is something that everyone has to go through.... i have to go now and i wil be back next time with more stories about what is going on in my life that is currently going thru a tsunami...

JOsh!!